It seems like you have pain and joy dancing in your mind at one time
that you claim to hate but you express love everywhere else
it is confusing to me, how you could possibly stay sane is a wonder to me
but I guess I'll roll with it for now.

But when I first saw you, you were of a different nature
you never swore like this at that time
it seems God has become less of role model and more of a distraction
and you have told me, you don't very much like distractions.

You believe your life is a living hell on earth and that no person would ever want to be you
and that death would be an easy solution because of these problems you created
but let me tell you a funny story, a girl I was talking to today, I don't even know her name
missed the bus on purpose because she was to scared to go home.
Her dad beat her with a lamp yesterday, and when he called her to find out where she was he yelled
threatening to call the police if she didn't come home, and she knows if she does she will probably be beaten
the man was so drunk she could the the booze on his breath from over the phone,
and she started crying in front of me and everyone else.
We told her to go get help from the teacher, or do something
she said last time she did that she had no food...

for a week...
besides what her friends gave her...
her 3 friends...
she said it wasn't much. I believe her.

so next time you think about saying you life sucks, or that you have to many problems to handle
ask yourself:

"Would I rather be beaten with a lamp by my own father?"