Because I'm Fat and No One Likes Me.

I'm going to play World of Warcraft all day,
Because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to tell myself McDonald's is healthy,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to go for a walk by myself,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to scarf down every bit of food I receive like a pig,

because I'm fat and no one likes me.

I'm going to wear a double XL size shirt,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to be a food critique when I grow up,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to try (and miserably fail) to make a name for myself,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to get kicked out of that tea store at the mall for drinking to much,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to care less about life and more about recording my television shows,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to pay for two seats when I ride the airplane,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to eat a tub of ice cream alone tonight,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to swallow sadness in front of you,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to later cry myself to sleep tonight,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to die of a heart attack,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to treat myself like I matter to you,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I am going to learn the hard way that love is for those who are beautiful enough to be cared for,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
I'm going to forget the hope of making love with a human,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
Instead I will make a cake with an oven,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.

You all probably this is one big joke,
because I'm fat and no one likes me.
But everything I just said is pure truth.
I'm fat and no one likes me.

P.S. My friend who helped me write this is fat and no one likes him. 

I'm Not Even Sure

That is more truth in one day than I've ever heard.
It was really an eye opener, and now I'm losing faith.
Not faith in my God, faith in humanity.
Faith in you.
You all claim the God is the way.
Then why do you have to fall into this.
I don't really understand why you think it's okay.
And I don't want to hear about it anymore.
I know I will though.
And it's going to hurt.
Like the time before.
And the time before that.
I think you need more self control.
You tell me I'm a good person.
I feel though, that's one of those "It takes one to know one."
And you are nice and friendly, but you are not good.
So your words have no impact on me.
But thanks for the compliment anyways.

And I am not really sure any other way to put it.
That's why it came out so awkwardly.
I'm sorry if you are offended in any way.
But you didn't seem to be.
That's a good thing.
But yeah, I think they are right.
It would probably be for the best.
And I wish it would.
But it won't.
And it's not that I don't want to.
It's that I'm scared.
I'm scared that it will all fall apart.
And friendship will turn into dust.
But I don't really even know.
What you think.
Just interpret this correctly.

Man, you are just an amazing person.
Most of the time.
Sometimes it's the harshness.
And that get's on my nerves.
But I know you got my back.
At all costs.
And you are more nice than mean.
And you are like a brother to me.
But your not.
We like to say we are though.
And I would like to say just one thing.
Just take a second, and rethink your actions.
And in the future, think before you act.
I still love you to death.
And don't take anything the wrong way.
I just thought you needed a bit of a reality check.
But you are an awesome person overall.
And it will always be a mystery.
But Lord knows I'm not arguing with it.
This is the best mystery ever.

يور ث بسط فريند أ جي كولد أسك فور. 

It seems like you have pain and joy dancing in your mind at one time
that you claim to hate but you express love everywhere else
it is confusing to me, how you could possibly stay sane is a wonder to me
but I guess I'll roll with it for now.

But when I first saw you, you were of a different nature
you never swore like this at that time
it seems God has become less of role model and more of a distraction
and you have told me, you don't very much like distractions.

You believe your life is a living hell on earth and that no person would ever want to be you
and that death would be an easy solution because of these problems you created
but let me tell you a funny story, a girl I was talking to today, I don't even know her name
missed the bus on purpose because she was to scared to go home.
Her dad beat her with a lamp yesterday, and when he called her to find out where she was he yelled
threatening to call the police if she didn't come home, and she knows if she does she will probably be beaten
the man was so drunk she could the the booze on his breath from over the phone,
and she started crying in front of me and everyone else.
We told her to go get help from the teacher, or do something
she said last time she did that she had no food...

for a week...
besides what her friends gave her...
her 3 friends...
she said it wasn't much. I believe her.

so next time you think about saying you life sucks, or that you have to many problems to handle
ask yourself:

"Would I rather be beaten with a lamp by my own father?"

Re-Live

The past was a time when responsibility was an idea
and we wouldn't understand it until years later.
And money was a cool little item that got you cool little toys
but now we need it to purchase a half-happy life.
You see children are fearless and willing to do anything
because they don't know that anything can harm them.
They don't care who looks at them when they sing or dance
because the public is to busy to care about their carelessness.

So lets laugh, and put responsibility aside;
lets relax, because happiness doesn't come from a dollar;
lets run away from our house built of frustration
into the fields of our childhood memories.

So lets jump off the highest bridge and be fearless again
lets sit down for a minute and be careless again
We'll scream and we'll shout;
we'll block out the world.
We'll dance and we'll sing
and forget about problems.
We will run through the fields,
wrapped in each others arms.
We'll laugh and we'll cry;
we'll be children again.

Change

How dare you say that to me

you are the most inconsiderate human being I have ever known

you yell in my face, telling me all the wrong things about me

then you turn around and tell me to CHANGE?

who are you to think you control every aspect about me

threatening to throw me away like trash

yeah, I totally see your "love" there

you and your love can shut up now

I don't ever want to speak to you again

clearly I understand you don't think I'm perfect

you don't ask a perfect person to change

and I know for sue now I'm not the person you want me to be

but your going to have to deal with that

I don't change for anyone like you

why would I change for a person who ruins my life

I change for people who I can feel love me

Those are the people I want to shape me into a better man.

And you call yourself a Christian

but you have broken God's rules time and time again

as if sin will never apply to your life

you nothing but hypocrites

and one day your skin will scrape the streets.

and I will crush the hopes and dreams of a beautiful ending

just like you crush mine today.

It's Breaking

You think your right but your always wrong
and I'm tired of having to put up with you.
It's yell and scream and ruin my hopes
and just like that remote you threw on the ground
we're breaking.

And it's not just this time
take a glance in this past
I am not new to this
but clearly you took it as a surprise
you should quit talking about how good you are
and realize not everyone is perfect like you
so quit proving yourself to me
because you have only proven yourself guilty

you say that its love
that you want the best for me
but trust me there is a fine line between support and abuse
and you crossed that line when you took it all away

and you tell me that it is stupid to believe
that dreams exist outside of our sleep
and in the day we should just do what we are supposed to
well guess what, now I'm day dreaming
connecting reality to imagination
I create worlds I put myself in
and it's not just when my eyes are shut
because I always drift away.

It's clear that I'm here for your benefit
and there is no reason for me to exist
you can yell all your lies into the room
I locked the truth long ago
now it rests deep inside my head.

This is no longer love or happiness
it has turned into a battleground
you say you are just supportive
but what you say is supportive
I say is abusive.

Turn Back Time

This is going to be generic as all gets out
everyone wants to say they wish they can turn back time
change something that happened before
so the future would be better.
but you told me your story
im so sorry for everything now
I love you so much
I didnt mean what I said
you never heard but I always screamed
and now I feel nothing but guilt
you wont hear this either
its better that way
never knowing my feelings
so I can talk behind your back.
I didn't know it was like that.
I never knew thats what happened.
And you take pills to sleep through the night.
Not because of energy
but because of stress.
I worry all the time
I have for years now
that you are dying
I dont want you to die
but I can't control everything.
I can't tell you to live
and expect life to work for me.
I wish God would let me turn back time
So I could be a kid again
and tell you that you were beautiful
despite being a mound
it was the future for all of us
now you can barely function physically
but you are a mental powerhouse
you are my scholastic idol
but your emotions are insane
and then you do something like that....

I wish I could turn back time,
watch the clocks tick in rewind.
so i could be a child and tell you all the wonderful things about you
tell you that you dont need this to be beauty
that you are the definition of beauty
it ruined your life
and now your ruining mine
you never needed to be this way
you beauty at the cost of health
your beauty at the cost of stress
you have ruined your life and now your ruining ours
I love you so much
but its just to much for me to handle right now.

But thanks for explaining
now I understand
but you say you will fix it
but its clear you dont even try
i dont know if i should say I love you
or i hate you
RIP or burn in hell
you were so beautiful once but you wanted to be beautiful
so you lost it all
wanting to be beautiful
at the price of true beauty.