Accepting Rejection

My mind is what it is

because I learned to accept "no"

but now I have no strive

to get where I need to go.

I know that true love

is only for those who can accept it

but in order to receive

you cannot be rejected.

My entire life has been 

a long list of denial,

and even though I try

that list is now in a file

and I have learned to quick send

every rejection letter there

so I can feel more secure

but I'm truly so sacred.

I am afraid from ever

hearing anyone say no

and when I grow up

having nothing to show

from trying hard all my life

and being turned down every time

love is what love was fifteen years ago,

a strive to be accepted,

and I've accepted that I'm not accepted,

and I've sent it to the file,

that way I will never care

and I will never be in denial.

I'll tell myself the world is just fine

but I'm truly scared of what it has,

but I'll lie so I can trick myself

but the truth now is not different from the past,

I'd rather be accepted,

than turned down and rejected.