Who I Am is Who I Wish I Was Not

You eat my soul away. And even though I don't cry myself to sleep at night I know I wont be laughing, because of you. You are just false love but the true hate inside you overpowers and everyone can see it clearly, at least I can. I tried to satisfy your constant demands but you thought I was only giving in so you demanded more. You have made me a person i'm not. Because when you would put me down, I heard you loud and clear, and when you took all of my possessions away, you took away my sanity, and you could always find the downside to a beautiful thing. Who I am is who I wish I was not, or ever was, because of you.

I wake up every day dreading it, "God, why did you put me in this position?" Your heart is a void that consumes the souls and joy of others and you spit on their dried up miserable corpse. And though they cry blood, your tears persuade them to do what you ask, but your "woe is me" won't work anymore. My heart pleads to be free, and I dream at night that I will be one day, but your hands, like chains, hold me down in this hell. You took me to the edge of the cliff, but you wont push me off cause you need to use me. And since that is the way it will always be you will never get rid of me, so I will get rid of you. I loved you but you never loved me, and so I lost my love for you.